I love you honey!
To say that it's been a challenging semester is an understatement. So many changes have occurred in the last few months and I'm ALIVE!! It has been a struggle but I am blessed to have accomplished what I have. It is my last semester in school, and I did fairly well. Family, friends, and my dedication have been the formula to my success. I just want to say thank you to all that heard my cries; To those who listened and encouraged me to keep going.
I love you honey!
Over the course of the past few months, so much has happened. Going back to December 29th, 2014, my fiancee moved from Brazil to the U.S. It's been quite an adventure. I'll have to write about our story on a different occasion. We got married on February 21st, 2015! It all has fallen into place. Finally!
At this point in my life, I feel busy yet quite tranquil. There is a sense of peacefulness in the middle of the chaos. Stress still exits but in a less form. I'm also looking forward to obtaining my degree by the end of the year.
Cheers to many good things to come :)
In the last several weeks I have experienced a variety of encounters with people who are just evil. Evil to an extent of power, authority, hypocrisy, and trouble. I am more than glad to share these experiences because perhaps others have had similar situations happen.
I'll begin by sharing the observation of watching "friends" change over time. When this happens they were perhaps in your life for only a set amount of time but they were never really "friends'. It's interesting to watch insecurities speak so loud that their negative energy thunders through crowded rooms. In this scenario I have accepted the fact that it is time for me to move on. I don't feel that I have a higher power or command but when attitudes of others begin to affect me in a way that is negative I'd rather let that go so that I can focus on spending my time in a better way or invest myself in people who will help rather than enjoy watching me fall.
Negative attitudes only lead to a negative life style.
Live + be +
My best friend!
I miss you!
I love you so much,
our time apart is making me sad.
You are a ray in my sun
that has not been shining to make me glad.
Your message to me today was,
"I love you, DON"T EVER FORGET that"
but I feel as if I am fading from you.
Please come back,
Please be my brother,
Please don't forget about the sisters that you helped raise.
We are still here!
We still need you.
Please don't forget that you are a ray in my life.
I am not sure where time has gone. It has literally flown by. Although the last several weeks have been incredibly busy for me I am excited for what is to come. The holidays are almost here! I will get to see my sister whom I have not seen for over 6 months. My fiancee will be finally moving the U.S and we will be getting married (: (hopefully) I am almost done with school! (Finally) I am just excited. I feel that many good times are coming my way.
Let me tell you all that I am dreaming and beaming with hope. I am exhausted and I can not believe I have survived the past several weeks. It has been work, work, work and few steps closer to my dream. I really want to share that I have joined a company that offers me the opportunity to make my dreams come true. Honestly, what I want is to help my mother and my siblings. I don't want them to worry about anything, specially financial burdens. If all goes well, I hope to share my secrets to all of you and hopefully this will lead you to the same path in living your dream.
I want to be free.
I want to rest.
I want to be happy.
I want to spoil my loved ones.
I want to travel.
I want to learn.
I want to share.
I want to be my own boss.
I want to give it all to the woman who gave me life.
I want to repay what has been done for me.
I just want to live my life!
#Staypositive #findaway #liveyourdreams
It has been a long time since I have felt this way. I feel DEFEATED. A few steps forward and then getting kicked by down by those who say care about you. I don't mean family but I mean government institutions. Personally, my educational journey has been a struggle. Not so much because of me but because of those in higher power positions such as administrators and professors. Those who spend their class time saying "Be Better" or "Your doing Great" and the next thing you know you are receiving snotty feedback. It is hypocritical and hurtful. That also goes to our government and our taxes. I have worked my entire life and my goal has always been to help my family. I do not understand how the government is denying and completely ignoring my pleas of justification. It just doesn't matter.
Not to mention the horrible service I have had with local business people. Planning a wedding should be about the bride and groom but in today's standards that's not what it is about. It doesn't matter. I feel like the doors are shutting in front me. I feel like crawling into bed and never seeing anyone again. Yet, this is when faith screams from my heart. I plea to my beliefs; I hold on to what I can't see. I only pray that God protects me and my family. Though I feel like giving up in life, I can't.
May God give me the strength to accept my defeats and somehow be victorious in life.
Today was a tough day but a testament of some sort. This whole week has been filled with illness and tons of work but nothing comes close to what today was about. With a busy week under our feet, our lives keep moving except for those unique moments. I am replaying today's scenarios over and over again. And, at the end of it all, family comes first.
I know that my job requires me to teach. I am also required to interpret for medical institutions. But all of those titles are meaningless if I said I did not have a strong family bond. Today, I was sister most forth. That was my job. Before anything else, I was a sister.
When the unfair judgments and treatments affect those that surround me, I can not help but to stand up for what is right. Those who know me are aware of this and those who do not are coming to find out. I do not like confrontation and avoid bad situations at all costs. But there are times where such actions are unjustified and take an effect that is hurtful to my loved ones. I am not mad nor am I blaming anyone for today. I was just happy and blessed to know that I could be there for my sister.
My Tough boy,
Oh how much you have grown.
It has been such a joy.
Life you have shown.
Your eyes are dark and strong.
Yours fists are small yet powerful.
Your smile is kind yet mischievous.
You scream, you cry!
But you melt my heart. Oh my!
Your hugs are short and tight.
You are so small,
Yet you are so bright.
You have the love of all.
My tough boy,
You are the sweetest gift in our lives.
My name is Perla Banegas. I am originally from Los Angeles, CA. I currently reside in Southwestern Minnesota. I have a great interest in learning from others and enjoy to travel. Brazil has been so far the best traveling place I have been to.